You and Me & Chasing Little G

Sharing A Part of Me

Sabra GilbertComment
So today I'm going to step out of my comfort zone a little bit and share some really personal things today. I don't really dive into my faith a lot on this little space because it opens myself up for criticism. Be it good or bad, I can be extremely uncomfortable with opinions on my personal decisions in my life. 

But today I'm going to share my testamony and my path to finding Jesus. I know that I have mentioned being a bible study leader and my faith a time or two on this blog but I don't really make it a giant thing. I'm starting to realize that that was a wrong decision to make about this blog. This blog is about my life and my faith is a giant part of my life. I probably spend around the same time in church or NAV activities or preparing for bible study as I do attending classes. Which means that it takes up a lot of my time.

I know that not everyone who comes to read this blog is a follower of Christ. I hope that that fact doesn't avert you from coming to my blog again. Or makes you skip over my posts that are about my faith. I think you can learn a lot about a person by listening to their stories or about their faith.

But i'm starting to go on a rant. So here it goes.

I didn't grow up in a church like most of the Christian's that I know. I remember attending a Methodist church when I was quite young, but around late elementry school age, we stopped going. And to be honest, back then it didn't really effect me much. It meant I could have more time for friends or to sleep in on the weekend. I had never really paid attention in church or sunday school anyway. A bible sat on my shelf and I didn't even consider myself a Christian. It was just another book full of stories.

It stayed that way for a long time. I moved to Lockport, up near Chicago and my faith was never brought up. I wasn't friends with anyone who went to church and the whole God thing just was never mentioned. Our time was better spent dreaming about boys or talking about My Chemical Romance or Fall Out Boy.

Things didn't reallys start to change for me until I moved to South Dakota. Lennox was a small town with a lot of different churches. Most of the people that I met had some kind of faith in Jesus in one way or another. Whether it was still a superficial faith, like just showing up for bible study or events, or an actual understanding of what Christ had actually done for them. It was just a matter of who you talked to. Some people only attended because their parents wanted them to and others truely had their own faith. I didn't really talk much about it with my new firends and was occasionally dragged from one church event to another without much dedication to the cause.

It wasn't until the end of Junior year, when Simeon and I started talking about our relationship that it became a big deal for me. Suddenly, I was head over heels for a boy who wasn't sure if we could ever actually pursue a relationship (even though he liked me too) because I was not a Christian as he was. I didn't understand and I have to admit to being hurt about it. Now i'm not saying that I became a Christian just so I could date Simeon. That isn't true at all. At some of the events that I had been dragged to I could really feel the pull to come to Christ but always thought that it would just make everything better in my life. But I didn't understand the actual point of faith.

Luckily, Simeon realized this and was the first person who ever sat down with me to discuss what it really means to be a Christian and why he had faith in Jesus Christ.

We talked about it a few times and since I had already been attending church and youth group, I think Simeon just started dating me anyway even though I hadn't taken the whole situation to heart yet. He just took a chance on me.

That summer, I went to church camp for the first time.That kind of environment for a whole week. SOmething finally stuck. One morning while doing devotions together, I suddenly just broke down into I didn't know how to make it up to Jesus for everything that He had done for me. I finally understood what Jesus' purpose in my life was for.

He wasn't there to make the sickness and  problems of everyday life go away. He was there to free me from having to sin everyday. And there to take my place in God's eyes. So that I was now spotless and had a place to sit beside the Father for eternity. He was there to give me strength to make it through the everyday problems because I no longer had no purpose in life other than to live and die. I was living to spread His word and grow in Him.

I guess that was a big thing that I learned through my story that I continue on when I try to Evangelize. Jesus is NOT a magic cure. The world is still full of sin, which means that death and disease rock our world each and every day. Most of the time it isn't "fair." But in a world like ours there is no such thing as fair. Jesus is in our lives to try to make the days better. To free us from the cycles we were stuck in before. To give me a voice to do things that I wouldn't usually do. Like share my personal story on my public blog.

If you have any questions about my story or my faith, please send me an e-mail!
I would love to hear from you and your story.