You and Me & Chasing Little G

Getting Ready for Little G || Maternity Photography

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One thing that I have always looked forward to for during pregnancy was to be able to take maternity photos. I've always thought they were gorgeous and I couldn't wait to be the one in them caressing my baby bump. And of course, there was no way I was going to be able to do that without our fur babies as well!

Looking back on these, I can't believe I was actually so big! Everyone always told me I was tiny and I honestly didn't feel like I got that large of a belly! But as you will see, I was wrong! Though when I hold Gemma, I still can't believe that there was any way that she ever fit inside me.


Well, here they are! Along with a sneak peak of Gemma's Nursery!


Photographer is Alyssa from Three Dot Studios

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Bringing Little G into The World || July 20th, 2018

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Bringing our daughter into the world was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, and I never even got to push!

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Starting the Wednesday morning before Gemma came into the world, I woke up to contractions finally starting. I say finally because I had passed 40 weeks on the 13th. After spending the majority of this pregnancy absolutely positive that she was coming early, it was driving me nuts that she wasn't in my arms yet. I was walking and walking and walking and eating spicy foods and pineapple and walking some more. I was so ready for those contractions to start after being told that I was still nowhere dilated the week before and had just been told that I had hit 1 cm the day before.

They seemed to come fast and hard and long. And since I was up for the majority of the night, I called into work and then they slowed down again. Making me walk more and more and eat dates and eat pineapple and roll and roll and roll on my exercise ball like crazy to get the contractions going again.


And on Thursday, they did the same thing. Intense all night and then lazy during the day. Except for that Thursday afternoon, I had another doctor's appointment to check in on Gemma and see where I was. 


It was the most stressful ultrasound that I've ever gone through this entire pregnancy. We spent a half hour in that room and while heart rate was fine, amniotic fluid was ok. Gemma was deciding not to move. At all. 

So after that horrible half hour, I then saw my doctor and my blood pressure was way higher than it should have been. So my doctor decided that between those two things that Gemma needed to come today. I was finally at 2 cm so she figured that we could just break my water and that would hopefully get my body really get serious.

So Simeon and I walked over the Labor and Delivery excited with the thought that we were going to get to see our Gemma soon. What we didn't know walking over, was that our doctor thought this was a much more serious situation than what she had let on to us. We got into our room and were told that I was going to be hooked up to monitors and my blood pressure checked continuously, which was not in my birth plan!

But after a few blood pressure checks and Gemma kicking off the external monitor multiple times, our nurse gave me the ok to walk around instead of laying down while dealing with contractions. So I started trucking the halls. Which unfortunately was a U shape so I was literally just walking back and forth constantly.

By the time my doctor came in to break my water, we were at 3 cm. 

Having my water broken was the weirdest feeling I've ever had. I expected a giant gush, and it was more like just a trickle. Until I stood up. Then I wished that I had laid down towels first.

A few hours later, I was at 5 cm and extremely excited that we were going!!


And then the progress stopped.


The contractions got worse and worse, but I wasn't going anywhere. I was barely able to handle them and asked for one last chance to relax in the tub to see if relaxing a bit more would help me dilate instead of pitocin right away.

It didn't help that Gemma wouldn't flip. She was face up and to the side and just wouldn't drop. She's a stubborn girl and has proved it the entire time I was pregnant. We had a wonderful nurse that reminded Simeon of the things that we had learned in our Bradley Method Course to try to manually move Gemma, but especially once my water was broke, it seemed impossible. 

The tub helped me mentally, but I still wasn't dilating more. And I knew that if I couldn't labor in the tub, then there was no way I could handle pitocin making the contractions worse. My body was acting like it was in transition with double peaking contractions and extreme and quick coming contractions, but nowhere near where it needed to be. So I gave in and got the epidural that I had insisted on the entire pregnancy that I wouldn't do. Simeon tried to talk me out of it, just like I asked him to, and we talked about the reasons I was deciding that I need it instead.

I have to admit that after getting the epidural. I don't remember much. I know my heart was racing enough that they didn't know if the external baby monitor was picking up Gemma's heartbeat or mine. Which meant that they needed to use an internal monitor for her. And that 2 hours after my epidural (which I slept through) I was told that I would need a c-section. That baby wasn't doing well with my contractions and Simeon had already been told that my contractions weren't really doing anything anyway. They had already stopped the pitocin because Gemma's heart rate was no longer fluctuating.


At this point, I remember panicking a bit and throwing up as I was being wheeled into surgery. This was the very last thing that I had wanted to happen and it sent me into a bit of a panic.


Then I was staring at a blue sheet. I had been asked if I wanted a see through one and screamed no. I don't do blood and the idea of seeing myself cut open didn't sit well with me. I wanted to see my daughter, but the idea of surgery was messing with me. After a bit of panic in the surgery room (I could still feel some pain after the epidural was at it's max, but luckily had a wonderful doctor who had the idea to use lidicain), I finally got to hear my baby girl for the first time.


Simeon even admits to almost crying and I know that I did. 


Getting Real About Blogging While Pregnant

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   After years of blogging, I always thought my first pregnancy was going to be one that I was all over. That I had a game plan in the bag and it would just be so easy. Since pregnancy is a plethora of learning new crazy things.

And then I actually got pregnant.

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And the first trimester was practically traumatizing. I was constantly nauseous and couldn't eat or drink. So with that, I constantly had migraines and headaches. And I slept constantly. I got up and maybe would have an hour in the morning before work, and then would fall asleep right after dinner (if I could get anything down that is!

So that left no time for blogging.

And even though I started by trying to take photos every week., that eventually tapered off as well while I was so much more distracted by sleep than wanting to look nice for pictures of my bump.

Then I finally started feeling better! Which was amazing and I was so excited about that! So then it was time to buckle down and get baby things done.

Which still left no time for blogging.

Sometimes, I've missed it. Blogging like I used to back in the days of Crazy.College.Life. (yeah that was seriously the name of my first blog.) I would just jump on my laptop whenever I had a spare moment and loved every second of it. I didn't pressure myself to make money on my blog or to have a million readers. I just enjoyed getting my words out there.

And that was the part of me that I thought would blog wonderfully through a pregnancy.

But in the last few years, I've tried to push myself too much in blogging. I tried to schedule ahead of time, make posts actually useful to people, and figure out social media. Which, if I'm being completely honest, I don't really like to do. Sometimes it's fun. But with those things, I put a lot of pressure on myself to follow deadlines that maybe aren't actually that reasonable with the time that I actually have to do these things.

Oy and making sure to have the perfect photo for a post. Oy vey!

Now I'm not saying that I'm not going to do these things anymore. These days, many of these things are what is needed to have a successful blog. One that not only is a wonderful hobby, but one that helps pay the bills as well. Which, if I'm paying to blog, it's nice if the blogging helps by paying for itself back.

What I'm wanting to say is that I don't want these things to dictate when I do or don't blog. I want to make a place full of fun writing and serious writing. I'll still have posts here and there that will be like this one and be completely words and not considered perfect. But I also want to strive for some posts that are useful to you as well, the reader. Which if you are still here reading this, thank you.

Thank you for  your continued patience with my absence. Thank you for sitting through this rambling post. Thank you for being awesome.

"Pregnant!"

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Written in December... But finished now. Oops!!


 

When I started blogging about my PCOS, I thought I was going to have a while to really be able to talk about it and the changes I was making and how it was affecting me.

But. . . Surprise, Surprise! PCOS didn't hold me down for long once I figured it out!!

Little G will be joining us in July 2018!

That's honestly while I've been MIA forever. I've had barely enough energy to work my full time job. Simeon has handled everything else and there is no way I could ask him to try to write a blog post for me on top of everything else. That poor man hates to write. 

I've finally started to get a little more energy now that we are starting into the second trimester! I can at least do things during the day without feeling like I'm going to die, though I still crash out by 10 any day that I work. 

How did we find out?

So in October, I was determined to try to figure out if I at least ovulated or not. Luckily my step-sister, who has also struggled with infertility, had gifted me her boxed kit of ovulation and pregnancy test strips after she found out she was expecting my little niece who is about to make an appearance! So I discovered that I did ovulate after only a few weeks of changing my diet around and using oils to support my hormones. But I didn't expect anything to come from knowing that I ovulated because it just felt too early in our journey to get that kind of a miracle.

But along came the time for my period to start, and I decided to take a pregnancy test anyway. Which was negative as I expected it to be.

And for the rest of the week, I was once again period-less but with a new crazy pain in my hips. LIke someone was shoving a knife through my pelvic bones constantly. It didn't matter if I sat down, laid down, stood up, I was in constant pain. I started googling like crazy what this could be. EVERYTHING I pulled up kept saying that I was pregnant and my pelvis was just expanding. Which I thought was crazy right after getting a negative test. So I ignored it for a few more days and kept googling "pelvic pain, NOT PREGNANT"

After nothing would even come up then, I decided to just take another test just to get it off my brain.

And it was postitive. 

It was about 7 am and Simeon was still dead asleep, but I ran into the bedroom and crawled back onto the bed, snuggled right next to Simeon's ear and whispered "We're pregnant."

To which he promptly replied "No we aren't. Go back to sleep."

He honestly didn't beleive me all day long! We ran to Target and got a Clearblue test (one that would say PREGNANT or NOT PREGNANT) so that there would be no confusion. I took it as soon as I got home (which Simeon was against) and after a minute I ran into the living room waiving a test with the giant word PREGNANT. And had to copy that annoying clearblue commertial where everyone says pregnant in a high pitched squeal (maybe it's only annoying if you've been TTC forever, but it drives Simeon and I nuts).

And finally Simeon beleived me.

Fighting PCOS || Weigh In Wednesday || 1

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So it's just been a little over a month since I had my first soft diagnosis of PCOS at my doctor's office. I still don't have a for sure answer since my blood test came back inconclusive and I don't have my first OB/GYN appointment until November 13th. But with working with PCOS as the answer, I've made some pretty big life changes that have already started giving me results!!

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Hormonal Support

So as I've already said before, I started essential oils to start eliminating hormone imbalancing synthetic chemicals from my home a few months ago. But as I did some more research, I realized that I could do even more with them! Young Living has a whole set of oils that are just for supporting your hormones. So I got them! I started putting Progenessence Plus on my neck every morning and night. Dragon time is supporting me as I plan to start my period right now (and feels a million times better than midol when rubbed on my back for cramps!). I also have the oil endoflex that I haven't used yet, but plan to impliment into my daily schedule as well. 

Changing My Diet

While oils are certainly helping, my biggest and most impactful change this month has been in cutting dairy, gluten, and about 80% of the sugar out of my diet. I also have IBS and these changes made me feel amazing. I had been drinking or rubbing the oil Digize on for my stomach issues multiple times a day and it certainly seemed to help, but just with eliminating these foods, I barely even need Digize to feel like a normal human being. Though when I do splurg on a pizza or too much sugar, digize is there to make me feel better! 

I'm not going to say that these giant diet changes are easy. Honestly, I'm an incredibly picky eater so even finding meals that I will enjoy without these things is rough. Finding a recipes that sounds amazing and is 100% gluten AND dairy free AND low on sugar? Sometimes seems impossible. But we've been able to manage. There are some smaller things I could also include in my diet that I just haven't started yet, but right now this is becoming comfortable.

So what have all these changes done?

For one, I feel a million times better. My stomach is pissed off at me constantly anymore.

Two, my acne is clearing up. I can always tell when my homormones aren't doing too hot because suddently my face breaks out like no other and it takes forever to get it to calm down.

November 1st, 2017 Weigh In

Three, I've lost 12 pounds since my first doctors appointment! Which is amazing! I honestly couldn't see a way of loosing more weight that didn't involve me finding a ton of time to spend hard core working out. Which right now just doesn't fit in my schedule (hello, full time job, side hustle, and large zoo of animals in my house!) But honestly just a diet change did so much!

Starting Weight: 225.9

November 1st: 213.8

What are my PCOS goals for November?

Self-Care

This is something I often let fall to the wayside. Just because I don't like to spend time on myself when I could be spending my time doing other things. Like Netflix binging. Or taking care of my mammals. But I want to impliment a weekly bath and facial night. I think that will go a long ways in eliminating stress and helping my horomones. And obviously from the photo above, I need some pedicure time. That paint is from when my friend came out and we got pedicures back in July!

Work Out Plan

Now as I said above, I don't have time to become an America Ninja Warrior in a few months. But starting with some low intensity home work outs 15 minutes a day and yoga before bed sounds do-able. I just have to get myself to do it! But I believe that it will help me on this journey. One of the main fighters of PCOS is loosing the weight that PCOS made you gain! 

So, are there any other PCOS Warrior's here reading with me? If so, I'd love to learn how you are changing your life in light of PCOS!